roseguardian5

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No Heart by roseguardian5, literature

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No Heart

I wonder if you realize I don't believe your smile I don't wanna play pretend like you have for a while. I don't miss the memories, the nostalgia's just not there And your words are as meaningless as the air. Wish on all the airplanes, mindless chitchat Talk and I'll feign interest in that. But when you walked out that door again, Even with that air of heaven sent, I'm relieved you finished your torment Because I don't see the difference Between my memories and this likeness I admit the craftsmanship's impressive But the personality's excessive I bet you don't even cry Can't speak but you sure can lie Do you even remember how

Glitter - Substitue Stars by roseguardian5, literature

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Glitter - Substitue Stars

"Listen to your heart" that's the lie they sold me Repeating it to me all my life So why is it that now the ones who told me All attempt to deny my strife? I followed the rules, played all my cards right And still came out being wrong. Now all that's left is a one-sided tango To another cliché long song. Where do I go from here? What's on the other end of tomorrow? Who do I turn to when the path's unclear? To you, the cause of all my sorrow? So many questions, all the wrong answers I search but there's nothing to find I was a fool lost in a dream come true Am I just losing my mind? To be so carelessly pushed aside Tore m

Games by roseguardian5, literature

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Games

If we learn at all, We learn that people are complex. Their decisions can be pleasant, But most will continue to vex. We learn that people Never really say what they mean. Look one way, stare another, And opinions rarely fall in between. Our smiles and our language Form our arsenal of tools And when I speak of "we" I speak of all misguided fools. So when we fall asleep at night To wait to play another game Often we forget That the whole world does the same.

Musings and Similes by roseguardian5, literature

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Musings and Similes

Like the hollowing wind trapped in willow trees Misery loves the company that sings it's favorite tune And you best believe I'll keep singing Like a meadow lark in June. If I fall asleep now, I'll never again open my eyes. Bleeding out so softly, streams of light across the sky. We are born to fall, all of us here to fail. So I am simply waiting to fall back into my despair. We don't live in this world because we think its fair. Like a broken clock left in an abandoned room, Keeping time from slipping in and bringing change, I want to be frozen in a space where I command That everything stays the same. If I lie awake now, I don

Blame it on the Nash by roseguardian5, literature

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Blame it on the Nash

Mascara sticks to my eyelashes But I'll end up leaving it on. My melodies get redundant Cause they all sound like love songs. Its not that I lack inspiration Or was forced to sign a resignation. I just try not to make mistakes But I make them all anyways. I guess what they mean by "You'll understand someday" is that I Learn by virtue of learning what they cannot describe. If you don't ask, you never know what not to ask If you don't try , you never learn when to give up If you don't breathe, you'll never face shame. I love sunflower because they rot the slowest I love to watch the white clouds drift as I drive I've noticed I d

Dear Me by roseguardian5, literature

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Dear Me

Dear Me, I apologize For always making life hard. I'm sorry for Making it difficult to make And keep your friends. I regret that knowingly, I helped you build walls Around you to keep all out And when they fell, I stood by as you alone dealt with it. I'm sorry I taught you to Disconnect from bad situations When I should have taught you To confront them dead-on. I'm sorry I make you feel Ashamed and upset When you have a crush on a boy, By reminding you how many Of these crushes have crushed you. I wish I could take back the times I let you cry alone in a stairwell, On your bed, In a bathroom stall. I wish I could

He and She by roseguardian5, literature

1,001 by roseguardian5, literature

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1,001

I feel hollow when you're gone, Even if we've spent hours together I smile at the world, through the glass But we both know that's an act. Yes, I can fight the pain, But I can feel the strain Riding on the static When you hang up first. But nothing else hurts. With you, I have 1,001 words I've been dying to say And then one look from you blows them away, The 1,001 times you just leave me laughing Even when the edges of my world start cracking. The 1,001 seconds that are left in between When I say nothing because you know what I mean And this is where I want to be, meant to be, hopefully, For just another 1,001 seconds more.

Candy Disposition by roseguardian5, literature

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Candy Disposition

Woke up 15 minutes after class started Almost got hit by a taxi There's no seat in the lecture hall. Forgot to brush my hair, And I swear, When I left, I had 2 shoes on Late for a meeting with the RA Saw a cute boy in the hallway He waves at me and disappears. Does he live on this floor? What's his name? Where'd he go? I know I've got the power to make this a great day But I can't seem to find a way! Just one smile headed my way Could make this an amazing day It's been strange so far, to say the least. On my own for the very first time, But don't worry, I'll be fine Cause I have the disposition of candy! First time wearing

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No Heart by roseguardian5, literature

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Glitter - Substitue Stars by roseguardian5, literature

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Games by roseguardian5, literature

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Games

Musings and Similes by roseguardian5, literature

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Musings and Similes

Blame it on the Nash by roseguardian5, literature

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Blame it on the Nash

Dear Me by roseguardian5, literature

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Dear Me

1,001 by roseguardian5, literature

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1,001

Give Up On You by roseguardian5, literature

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Give Up On You

I've tried to give up on love songs Because for me, they don't come true. I've tried to give up on happy endings Because all my stories turn out blue. I always see the happy, smiling couples Laughing merely at the air, And I constantly wonder If anyone can see I'm there. I've tried to give up on sonnets, On verses, rhymes, and metaphor I've tried to give up on wishing Because there's no point in asking anymore. I always feel that cliché Of a hole in my heart But I didn't know that It could tear me apart. But no matter how hard I try, No matter how much I convince myself to There just seems to be no way To try and give

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What's Left Of Me by roseguardian5, literature

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What's Left Of Me

I’m standing nearer, towards the edge And I know if I jump, I’ll end up dead The funeral music is already playing in my ear I find ashes imbedded in my feet So why does each step I take feel so sweet? I’m moving farther from the center of this social circle There are hands below that seem to wave to me With silent promises that it will set me free The wind is cold on the flesh that’s bare, Proving that I am still there Before you take apart my dreams, take my hand Won’t you please remind of how this all began? The melody, the symphony was lost to the words The ones no one heard And now I’m here Al

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July 8
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Deviant for 20 years
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Current Residence: Suburbia
Favourite genre of music: All
MP3 player of choice: iPhone
Wallpaper of choice: Anime/Manga Style
Favourite cartoon character: Hinata from Naruto
Personal Quote: You might call it suicide, but I'm too full to swallow my pride - Police

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ALL MY FRIENDS

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Unknown at this point

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Bowling for Soup

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Langston Hughes

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Any RPG

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PS2

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roseguardian5

Aug 26, 2011

IS THIS A SECOND JOURNAL ENTRY IN A YEAR?

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Yes, unbelieving journal title, it is! LE HOLY SHIT I KNOW! It's a miracle. Am I here to announce my return from that weird not-hiatus-leaving thing? ...no. I'm a terrible human being. Apologizes. BUT I am here to tell you that I am now working on a blog site called Moar Powah! ...yes, it's really called that, LOOK http://moarpowah.com/ I'm writing as starshine5050, doing a weekly blog series out on Fridays, called Manic Movie Magic. What is that you ask? Voila, a link once more: http://moarpowah.com/author/starshine5050/ If you do decide to check it out....YAY! THANK YOU! There are also lots of great reviewers on the site about every to

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roseguardian5

Jul 25, 2011

Wow...its been a long time, huh?

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So, it's been a little under a year since I wrote a journal entry...yikes. That's not good. I guess its cause I've been busy. So... yeah... All is good, still in school, now majoring in History/Journalism and hoping to get high school teaching certification when I get to grad school someday. Feeling very old, a little tired too. Lots of drama at home but it's nothing unmanageable. I might stop posting to this account. I'll still be writing on the side, and commenting/favoriting other people's stuff but since no one really reads my stuff/give feedback, I just assume its not really do much. This is not one of those "WAAHHH PAY ATTENTION ME W

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roseguardian5

Aug 20, 2010

Why Hello there world!

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...I'm your wild girl! I'm your ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-ch-cherry bomb! (does anyone else love that song?) So besides classic kickass-lady-rock what have I been up to? WELL! Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep is coming out on the 7th! I am so uber excited that I am totally blanking out that its the day when school starts. Shut up, I know, school comes first but its the game I have been waiting for!!!!!!!!!! I hope...cause if it sucks them I am going to be very very angry. 40 dollars down the hole and all. SO! Now that I am free of both an awful roomate (and the sheets she never changed) and the deathly hold of physics, I am going to into what I s

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Thanks for the fav!

Thanks for the

Cuttlefish43

Jul 20, 2011

Thanks so much for the

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I appreciate it!

xXAllieWantsMusicXx

May 16, 2011

Thank you so much for the fav

GuruGuruboo

Dec 13, 2010

I MISS YOU.
Hope you're doing well, teaching makes me so busy.
And did I ever respond to your note btw? :U

roseguardian5

Dec 14, 2010

I MISS YOU TOO!
Teaching is INTENSE! I do it once a week, I can imagine how crazy yours is.
And you didn't ever reply...at least that I saw...*quick check* nopes!

GuruGuruboo

Dec 27, 2010

Haha, yeah. Activity plans take a lot more time than I thought.
But yes, then that's my bad. So sorry. I thought for sure I had!
*goes to do so now*